School.

Is starting. For everyone. But me. 

Kind of glad, I need a break, more than two months, maybe this will relieve me from everything. Once January hits I think things will get back into proportion and I'll be able to get back on my feet. Lately I have been drained of everything. Emotions especially. I feel like doing nothing ever, don't even like doing my hair or makeup anymore. Shocking. I definitely miss me being happy all the time and I am sure everyone around me does too. It is hard to make someone happy, it kinda just has to happen. School will probably help when everyone's going back though, it won't be so much as, "hey want to go to the beach? Oh wait..." Yeah. Now I'll be the one hanging around while others are stuck in school. Maybe that will help...just maybe. The only sucky thing is I don't have anymore help from my siblings, so basically it is still a lose/lose situation. Prayers. I need prayers. And I need to pray way more.

I'm positive everything will work out as it should, I'll just soak everything in, and let life flow.