Back in the Mac.

 Missouri was great. End of story. A twenty hour trip there and back, Emma was amazing the whole time, even the car ride. So here is a defined list of our trip:

-I got a perm and a feather for free. 

-Enjoyed $2.99 smoothieking Tuesday.

-Won $41.00 off of the lottery.

-Visit some great family.

-Emma did her first crawling at her great grandmothers.

-Found the coolest movie place.

-Went to a great mall with stores Macon does not have.

-Drive thrus at Subway, every gas station and smoothieking.

I am so glad I got the break and time away from Macon. I needed a break, and something better to do than sit around the house. I would not mind going back for another stay. The only thing that I hated was goodbyes.They suck. But I love traveling places and seeing people. I'll be saying goodbye to people for the rest of my life, better get used to it.

Missouri, I hope to see you again soon.

Road trip.

To Missouri. Thank goodness. It will be a hard time getting there and back but I think it will be totally worth it. I hope. I am getting tired of arguments, fighting, and bias people. Maybe this vacation or what I call it, a getaway, will help and ease all of the stress. 

Pray for a safe trip...

Bye Macon.

Sick.

Emma has been sick the last couple of days, It's so sad watching her suffer. What is even worse is hearing her cry, it breaks my heart to pieces. I hate when something is not in my control. If I could control everything around me, Emma would not be sick right now. I love that little girl, please go away cold. 

 She is finally almost able to crawl, I give it another week before she does, so I have been stressing about keeping the house clean, who ever knew it was so hard to keep a house clean, it is like impossible ! I have to do it for Emma though so she can stay healthy and not hurt herself ! I cannot believe how fast she is growing up, I kind of hope she slows down a little, but then again, I'll be happy to quit changing her diapers all the time. Not looking forward to hearing "I hate you mom" when she is a teen though. I have never been so in love with something, it's hard to realize she is a little human being ! So cute. I'm looking forward to seeing her grow up, it'll be fun !

I guess when it comes down to it, being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up. These are the best days of our lives. The only thing that matters is just following your heart, and eventually you'll finally get it right.- The Ataris

School.

Is starting. For everyone. But me. 

Kind of glad, I need a break, more than two months, maybe this will relieve me from everything. Once January hits I think things will get back into proportion and I'll be able to get back on my feet. Lately I have been drained of everything. Emotions especially. I feel like doing nothing ever, don't even like doing my hair or makeup anymore. Shocking. I definitely miss me being happy all the time and I am sure everyone around me does too. It is hard to make someone happy, it kinda just has to happen. School will probably help when everyone's going back though, it won't be so much as, "hey want to go to the beach? Oh wait..." Yeah. Now I'll be the one hanging around while others are stuck in school. Maybe that will help...just maybe. The only sucky thing is I don't have anymore help from my siblings, so basically it is still a lose/lose situation. Prayers. I need prayers. And I need to pray way more.

I'm positive everything will work out as it should, I'll just soak everything in, and let life flow.

Christians.

I am a big Christian. I may not go to church as I used to, but I believe in God one hundred percent.

Although sometimes, I am kind of ashamed of being a Christian. You wanna know why? Well look at all the Christians in America. We are all so terrible. We are stuck up, hypocritical, we judge people, we are mean, and we are plain out not God's followers. Of course, no one is perfect, I get that. But good grief, if walking in a church is uncomfortable, no one even speaks to you, that is just sad. Youth pastors should reach out, as much as possible, even to the people who drink, smoke and do drugs. We should all love one another. Giving up is a big thing I have seen. Of course it is the easiest thing to do, but probably the worst. Gosh, people in this world, have become scary.

Let's all smile at one another as we walk pass each other, or lend a helping hand, start small, grow BIG.