Careless.

Careless People. Hate them all. Stop being so self centered and go help others. Stop thinking of only yourself. It's bad for everyone surrounding you. It is time to start thinking of others. We all get so excited to do mission trips and pay thousands of dollars, but why not go downtown for free and serve? Or lend a couple dollars to a friend whose going through money problems. Buy food for the needy? Hmm, be nice. Just be happy with life. It's too much of a waste of time when were all fighting constantly, and complaining about how we don't have everything we want.

Babysat three kids today, loved it, and loved them. They are too sweet. Not as sweet as my Emma of course. :)Got a watermelon from Kroger, wanted it so bad, it was a crappy one though. Made me mad ! So I took it back, and their customer service was closed. Boo. Guess I will wait another day ! :)

Hmm.

People will be people, but some of them you'll just have to let go. Sucks for yall !

I think having a baby has made me realize who my real friends are. I'm not going to say who, but thank you for being there for me and helping me out.

 And thank you everyone else for supporting me with good and positive comments about the whole manner.

Prayers to those people in the huge accident on Mercer. I was stuck in traffic for an hour and a half. Truck driver ran a red light and killed a women, and injured another. Suckers still alive. Thankfully, I suppose. But pray for the family who had a loss. :/

Driving.

Can. Be. Stress. Honestly anytime I am in a hurry, everything in the world has to occur. Coincidence? I think so. To all the dumb drivers, please drive more efficient? Thank you. Not that I don't drive dumb sometimes, guilty as charged. BUT I have not gotten a ticket or gotten pulled over....knock on wood.

Today we had a family photo shoot. It was a lot of fun, but the guy taking pictures making Emma laugh was a bit silly, great photographer though. 

I have not yet figured out what I want to do yet for my future, but photography may be a thought. I love taking photos, and I'm not to shabby, I don't think? Nursing has been my goal so far, but who says I can't do both?

"Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life"

Seems fair to me !

Thoughts.

“A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.”

Sometimes that can be too good to be true. Having a baby is so hard I am realizing. I LOVE it don't get me wrong, but I think the worst parts are the emotions. No more being an individual, and that's what kinda stinks. I can't just go out anymore, and do what I want. Emma is my boss, and I do as she pleases. I sometimes give up on calling up friends to make plans, because I have this sense of pity they feel towards me. Don't feel sorry for me though, I'm good. Maybe be there for me a little more? I still like feeling like a teenager every now and then...

Emma cries ALOT, but only because she is teething....please end. Please? Yeah, don't have a baby unless you have ALOT of patience. Didn't watch any television today, instead I puzzled with my brother and my dad. We were entertained. I think this world would be better if we all had a little family time...without electronics because they can be an interruption. Figures. But who would do that? Because electronics take over the world. Sad. 

Gosh.

I love this little girl. She lights up my morning when I wake up. The most exciting things are yet to come but so far she has done so much. She turned over a while ago, when she first did it was more exciting than graduating high school just about. When she smiles it makes me the happiest inside. I don't want her to grow up, but it will happen. So I will continue to cherish every moment with her.

Today was cupcake day with the best friends. It went well and I had a lot of fun, we plan on selling them and making a few dollars, so come and buy one, or two, or twenty three ! Please?

I love hanging out with them, I miss the old times and I want to bring them back. Let's do it.

“Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you.”

Btw, Emma laughed for the first time today ! Gosh, greatest and cutest thing ever !

Decisions.

Decisions. Decisions. What to cook? Oh, stroganoff, yum. I love cooking. Especially for loved ones. Such a good choice for dinner, and an easy one.

I hate making choices that depend on my future though. I hate making choices about small things too. Especially hard ones that could affect you, or the other. Today I sat around signing up for college, should I start this semester or next? Then I have to think of all the outcomes. The bad things and the good things. Of course when I finally come with the outcome, it's the thing I don't want to do. Luckily, I find out it is too late to sign up, so I will be able to start a semester late. I figure I would do better with a baby and all...So how about other decisions...like should I do this or that. Should I clean the house or wait till tomorrow, should I buy this shirt or those shoes? And then there are those big ones that can change your life. Should I marry this guy or wait? Should I drop my friends or keep them? Should I drop out of high school or stay? And the questions continue on.

My thing is, don't worry. Things will follow through as they should. Don't stress out about making a decision because soon your going to pop, and then you will make the wrong one. Don't let someone else make the decision for you. Think about it. Everything will turn out good no matter what in the end.

Life goes on.

Yes it does. I'm not the one to talk, but I seem to see a lot of people complaining about something so small and so pointless. Like not being able to get a boyfriend, or not having money to see a movie. Others have a reason to be upset though. But don't let it take over your life. It may be hard, but you must let go. Or your life will be miserable. Trust me, I've gone through it, we all have. I sense that bad luck comes my way no matter what and I have let it get to me every time. I'm learning not to. When something terrible happens, or life isn't going your way, of course depression comes up. Depression sucks. It's scary because when the point comes, the mind can be strong. Very strong, leading you to do not wise things. Life is so scary, I worry all the time about the future.

Don't though. Because good comes out of bad, every time. When God brings you too the bad, he'll help you through it, and bring you to the good. There is always someone on worst terms than you are. Be positive. I know a few who have lost a loved one, who wishes they could have done anything to spend more time with that person, I'm on the same boat, my grandmother. But don't spend your time wishing, what's done is done, and soon enough you will see them again. Don't let life get in your way, instead strive to live it, it's too short. Lend a helping hand to someone in need, it makes me feel better all the time, and you might just make someone other than yourself happy.  

You can either live in bad luck, or make it somewhat better by making the smallest changes.

Trends.

I never realized how hard it is to stay on top of trends until I went shopping this evening. Every single person passing me by with Polo on, with rompers on, with iPhones...It seems as if your not cool enough if you don't have everything that everyone else has, it is kinda upsetting. It is a big issue in today's society, kids getting picked on because they don't have a game boy, or high school students sitting at the loser table because they are not wearing Polo. I have always been the one to want to be on top of trends but it is so much work and so expensive. So why exactly is it that big of a deal? Then you see a homeless person, who has nothing, or a child in Africa who has nothing...then I see my Emma who doesn't care, she is herself, and so happy ! 

Maybe we should all be like baby Emma....eh, who's going to listen to me anyways? :P

Stress.

Patience is a virtue. Not in my world. It seems as if stress has overcome my state of mind. So much going on ALL the time. Parents divorce, death of a loved one, newborn baby, finances, friends and marriage ! So what do I do? I sit around holding everything in, pretending nothing is wrong. Is that the right and smart thing to do? Probably not, but I do it anyways. Sometimes I wish everything would stop. But with my luck it will continue on. 

I guess that's why patience is a virtue though, because once all the bad clears my mind, I'm still happy with my life. I have a beautiful baby, a lovely hubby, and amazing support ! So, lesson learned, Life sucks don't look at all the bad because there is always good in life, you just have to look at it in that point of view.

First Blog.

Today I am starting a blog. It may sound dumb and might not be a good idea like a GREAT idea, but it will be a way for me to get things off my chest. Things like how life can just suck so bad, or how dumb some people can be. Well we'll see how it goes...not like I have anything better to do...