Changes.

Everything's changing. The world, the weather, friends and family, and just basically every aspect of life. I don't think I like it either. I hate change. So so much, I just don't handle it well. It's hard looking back at the past, and then looking at where I am now. You know whats even harder? Looking ten, fifteen, twenty years from now.
Scary. Where will I be? What will I be doing? Will I be a successful person? Will I even be alive? Time is not our friend. Got to stick that into our minds. Just have to. I guess changes will occur for the rest of my life, I'll just have to deal with it. Just hope it's for the better.
Advice, be careful with your life, remember who you used to be awhile back? Young, careful, guys had cooties, drinking and smoking were not even a choice. Wait....we grew up, that's right. Sad story, growing up.

"We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing."- George Bernard Shaw
"Too many people grow up.That's the real trouble with the world,too many people grow up.They forget."- Walt Disney
"You are only young once, but you can stay immature indefinitely." - Anonymous

Lately.

I have been feeling a bit down. No I do not hate my life nor am I upset about it, I am just tired and annoyed with the same old same old. I am ready for adventure. I know with Emma that seems a little impossible, but what's my reason for that? Why would it be impossible? Because I'm lazy. That's just it. Of course I couldn't do anything crazy, but I need to step out of my little box. Live life...with Emma. Staying home all day is making me depressed. I miss being outgoing and a social hog. I'm ready to step out...
Am I wrong for saying this? I just miss being me. I feel like everyone dislikes me for having a baby. So what, mistakes happen. Everyone says who cares what others think, that's just a saying though, no one really goes for that. At least everyone I know doesn't. It's so hard to not to care what others think. So hard....maybe that's why I have been hiding in my little box...
When in doubt chicken out. True that. 

Late photos.

 Cross Country meet, Halloween, Nineteenth Birthday

Sorry I put up too many photos, but in my opinion, photos make anything with words even better. It can show alot more than words can too, the smiles especially. I am finally getting into the habit of taking memories, precious kodak moments that I will never get back. Good thing my dad got me a camera. A good one in fact. Thanks Dad!

Emma Mae, the cutest thing ever!

Shout Out.

To Stephen Cook. For winning fifth in his region meet! Meaning he gets to go to state all by himself to represent!

I honesty admit I do miss high school. Don't get me wrong, I didn't like it, but it was fun while it lasted. The drama, worrying about what to wear, the reputation, popularity, the clicks all sucked. You need to take out the bad though and see the good. The pep rallies, making friends, football games, prom, homecoming, the dances, powderpuff. Those are the things I miss. Adults always say "real life" sucks. It does. For the most part anyway. Working instead of going to school to fool around isn't any better. Maybe just maybe people need to realize they take things for granted way too much. School is a break. A time to find out who you really are. Who your friends are. And what your future will be. I guess we just don't think of these things till its too late. Till we're working everyday and too tired all the time or retired and looking back at everything. I wish I would have realized this, because right now, I am just as lost as someone just entering their freshman year.

Just a word of advice. Listen.

Birthday week.

Has passed. My nineteenth birthday is over with. It was great though

I must say. The last few weeks have been so crazy. October is usually my busiest month of the year, not to mention my favorite. I love fall. I love Halloween. I love my birthday. I love everything about the month! Emma even turned 6 months (her half birthday) how exciting! She has been wonderful, she had a doctors appointment, and got a couple shots. She is now eating baby foods, such as peas...yuck.

Where there is no imagination there is no horror.  ~Arthur Conan Doyle, Sr.

Ninteenth Birthday: Wonderful. I got an iPod from a great friend Jenna Allen, lovely lunch at a Mexican restaurant including a few other gifts from Lisa Allen. (Allen's do it the best), I even got a gift certificate for back massage therapy from Olivia Williams. Talk about GREAT.

Halloween: Much fun, it was Emmas first Halloween. Went trick or treating for probably five minutes. It was super chilly out. Did a couple fall festivals though which I thoroughly enjoyed. Trunk or treating was successful even though we were called the last minute group. Obvious for a baby mama. I had fun though, Emma did too even though she wont remember at all, but hey, that is what it's all about.

Gosh. I just cant believe October is gone, it feels like it just flew by. November is here though. Kinda hoping it goes by fast because December is up, and I am looking forward to the Christmas fun! Emmas first Christmas, it will all be so perfect. The decorations, the tree, the presents, the dinners. Yeah right. It will be the most imperfect Christmas just like everything else in my life. But hey, I'm not complaining. I love my life, and everything about it. I went through the stage where I hated it, but I need to get over it. Things are like it should be, and Emma is everything I have ever wanted. I mean, how much more perfect could THAT be?

Happy Halloween everyone.